I recently read that people who are Autistic tend to be abused in relationships, taken advantage of, and attracts said predators and abusers. This would explain a lot. As someone who’s neurodivergent just going through a neurotypical world I tend to find myself in the most bizarre and often times abusive relationship. Idk where I even attract these people. I’m genuinely a good person and I think they see that and immediately feed off it until there’s nothing left or I fight for my independence a little. If I try to get away it gets worse and then I’m called the crazy one in the end when i finally raise my voice and show my tears. I’m a product of my environment… you’re the crazy one I’m the abused and fed up. There’s no reason I shouldn’t be able to have autonomy over things in my life regardless of my relationship. And should feel happy and excited to be around my partner, not dreading it, depressed, scared, avoidant and just doing something because I fear the consequences of saying no.