I’m going through it. I should probably blog about it soon but sufficed to say I haven’t felt very sexual at all. Still not really there. And I wonder if it’s perhaps that I have no romantic crush or person that I’m talking to like that. I find that I just haven’t been mentally stimulated in that way in quite some time. I have my cuck and he’s a sweetie but he’s not a traditional cuck. It’s not a romantic relationship. It’s more of a great friendship and if I get too mushy with him he pushes me away. So I have to keep myself in check with him. Sadly I haven’t had any distractions.

I haven’t had sex since June or July. And before that it was Feb. it’s a constant struggle between my primal desires and my standards. If you keep your standards low you can get sex any time. I know a lot of men who stay getting laid. And good for them. Sex isn’t my goal. I want more. I want a lot more. And there in lies the issue. I’m no longer settling for less. Which means having none. And I guess I’m ok with that. Dealing with boring or lazy men is too tiring.

Maybe I need to open up my DMs for guys who aren’t physically for me but offer great mental engagement. My brain hasn’t been engaged in a while. I had a friend on here. But I found out alllll his pics were fake and I confronted him and he’s been MIA ever since. Which is a bummer. I deeply hate liars and fakes. But I genuinely enjoy great conversation and connection. You could be not my type and we could have amazing wonderful conversation. I’m here for it.