I took some mushroom chocolate the other night and I got to experience something I don’t normally get to. I lost my inhibitions and I felt like I could appreciate sexual things with strangers. Just like hey let’s talk, that’s interesting, wanna fuck? Sure why not. It feels good. Let’s feel good together just because. Is that what it’s like to be a guy?

See for me sex is very intimate. I have to know you, I have to trust you. The stars have to align. It’s really fucking annoying, not gonna lie. It’s so precious and I hate that. I wish it wasn’t so precious. I feel like I’m missing out. I’m sure some of it is religious shame stuff from my childhood that lingers. But anyway….

I was able to just enjoy a person on a totally different level. Like hey, just passing through, let’s both do this thing that feels good just bc we can. Not bc of looks or feelings, just bc in this moment we’re both feeling a vibe and we’re gonna grab whatever is closest and enjoy it. Not because pleasure depends on them, bc I was gonna feel pleasure either way on mushrooms, but bc it was simply a fun way to enhance the experience.

I didn’t fuck anyone. But had he been in front of me it would have been a different story. No, instead I slept it off and I’m back to my precious picky self again. Womp womp. But for a min there I felt like what a guy must feel like. Just wanting to have sex for the sake of feeling good and nothing else. Is that what it’s like for you? Or…..is it more like…..you have a pressure building inside you and you just need to release it?