I'm having so many things going on my life and I thought bringing new people in my life would make things a bit easier.

Yet, I feel just empty.

I think I'm chasing a ghost. I did fell for someone last year, someone who actually made me feel normal. And things didn't work out, because of course, they didn't.

I guess, I'm still looking for someone like him.

It doesn't help that I'm so stressed out about my cat and the amount of money I'm throwing at my place. I had to cancel my subscription to ESO because, well, I need to pay for my cat's meds and other expenses at home.

I feels like I can't catch a break.

Is it too much to ask to meet someone who genuinely likes me and doesn't feel disgusted by how I look? I appreciate people being nice, but I can tell they think I'm ugly.

I want to run away for a couple of days. I'm so, so mentally and physically exhausted.