I'll probably attrack some trolls or whatever. Hopefully not. But I don't have anyone to talk to, and I'm not feeling like posting on a subreddit, so why not here?

I'm tired. Like, exhausted. I feel a huge weight on my shoulders, and I'm not sure how much I can continue like this.

I'm trying to meet people. But it feels like I'm doing something wrong, or I just attrack the wrong people. I'm very aware that I'm not attractive at all, so I guess, I should get used to be this alone. But it's hard, you know? Sometimes I wish someone would care about me.

Taking care of my mom for the last ten years, have meant to do a lot of sacrifices. All my hard work had been towards making a better life for her. I've worked a lot in the past, so we could have money for our expenses.

And I don't regret it. At all. I would do it all over again.

But sometimes, I wish someone would check on me. Or get me a small chocolate. Or just hang out with me, talking about random shit.

I'm feeling very tired, and exhausted. It sucks being this alone, and having to come to terms with that reality. Because it's clear that it doesn't matter what I do, I'll just be all on my own.

I'm tired.