Kept you waiting, huh?

I've thought long and hard about what I wanted to share with you guys and that’s kind of the whole point of this post.

first, I would like to address why i’ve been away for so long, and there are two main reasons: Mental Health and Fear.

Very few of you will know this, which is probably the reason i’m still here, but I have been doxxed a few times, and no I don’t mean someone just sent me my government name and threatened me like a few times before. I got doxxed. Someone posted pictures of me online, made tiktoks about my appearance and made an image compiling the names of all my siblings and parents and other close family, along with their date of birth and even my address, close friends of mine were threatened for being involved with me, sent pictures of themselves along with their address and told to kill themselves.

This whole thing created a turmoil inside my head which reduced my ability for creative work by a lot, luckily, the effects of this were minor, aside from how personally affected I was. Only a few thousand people saw the tiktok and tweets and even tho I had god knows how many DMs when I woke up the morning this happened, it’s still not that many people in the grand scheme of things. I managed to get everything deleted faster the next few times it happened and eventually it stopped.

It has been several months since this happened, and I haven’t quite found the solution to the problems this brought me. I feel very sad because I was able to separate things, Bloom and Me were very very different, but with my face being leaked and the constant fear of it being seen by everyone, the two started merging together and lines became blurry, as some of you may have noticed, I started posting some pictures of myself in some places, revealing half or even more of my face and my whole body, mainly on twitter and Patreon, pictures which I would’ve never posted had this never happened, but after I felt this huge breach of privacy and I could no longer separate bloom and I from each other, this immense imposter syndrome settled in and I could not shake it, I felt as if I were tricking everybody into “liking” me by only showing a part of myself, it would’ve been ok had I been able to keep creating content and being satisfied with how things were going but that wasn’t the case, so I want you all to know that me sharing my body online and even more of my face is an attempt of reclaiming the creative freedom which I once had, I felt honest and free about what I made as Bloom, and I’m taking steps towards feeling the same way again.

On top of that, all the content I’ve made for Patreon had been stolen and posted for free, which really hurt me as well, im not one to advertise my exclusive content with early access audios or that kind of self promotion, I don’t think it’s bad or anything, I just have a hard time doing it cause I feel like I’m pushing it onto you guys, but Ive made 40 audios or so there, and it felt bad to have the control over my work stolen too.

I apologize for the lack of content lately, dealing with all of this drained most of my energy, and I had no choice but to prioritize what keeps my bills paid.

I’m happy to let you all know that I do not plan on quitting soon, I still love you guys and I still love making audios, I have tons of cool ideas I’d love to bring to life and people who I’d like to collaborate with, I’d like to tackle streaming more seriously and even attempt NSFW streams and visual content, it all depends if my partners would enjoy being filmed and sharing that or if I can manage to do all these different things all at once, but at least this whole mess didn’t ruin things for me, I will keep pushing to feel comfy with myself and excited to create and make you guys feel good! The comments I receive about how much you guys miss me are so appreciated and motivate me so much, so thank you 💜

Things may not be perfect, but they never really are. I may work slower than before, but I always put everything I have into my content.

I’ll be back soon enough.

-Bloom.