So most of my posts are me imagining a conversation with the lover who will eventual find me. The first part of my posts/questions are her struggles that she is has endured that eventually look for someone outside her spouse. The second part of nearly every post is my reply/love letter to her. I’m calling out for her. Hence “find me” is in nearly every post. Some of my response is trying to overcome her hesitations about having an affair.

All my posts are really internal to me in a conversation I’m imagining. So, I wonder who is finding these posts? Like this one, I’m only publishing it to my profile but hundreds of viewers read them. No one is following my profile meaning they are reading this post because they have noticed my actual published posts and started reading all my others.

I wonder if my pics are doing me a disservice. I wonder is there is anyone really in AL or Bham who is experiencing the loneliness I am. Sure there are tons of men posting and lots of women selling. But true affair seekers?? I don’t know. I do know it’s a numbers game. It’s hard to be patient while also being/feeling in need.

If you are really looking and you have read this can I ask you for a favor? Up vote this post. So I know I’m not endlessly rambling into Reddit. Thanks.