C,

Remember how insecure and fearful I was in our relationship? I treated every phone call like it could be our last, and every moment of silence from you was interpreted as if you didn't care. I know better now. Those three months of silence taught me that it doesn't matter. None of it matters. The time apart, the silence, the lack of communication and connection.

Know how I know? Because last Sunday when you called me from your hotel room it was like nothing had ever happened. Nothing had ever come between us, and we were us all over again. You love me. Deeply. And you miss me when I'm not around. I don't need you to say it to know it. Not anymore.

Does that mean I want you to go silent or neglect to tell me those things? Absolutely not. I love each and every moment we get together and every sweet sentiment you send my way. But it does mean I'm not living in fear anymore. I have zero fears that you will ever forget me... will ever stop feeling the way you do about me.

Does it mean you and me, physically together forever? Not necessarily... we still have obstacles in the way. We probably always will. We just met at the wrong time in the wrong space for things to be easy for us. But it does mean we will have that soul connection... no matter what. Of this, I'm sure.

I'm sure I will still have my moments... habits are hard to break, and anxiety doesn't just go away. But I have all the sweet things you have said, all the moments you've stolen away for me, even while you’ve been super tired and stressed, and I’ll always have the way I felt on the phone that day to lean on now. And I know. You love me in the same way I love you. And that kind of love doesn't just go away with silence.

I love you... always,
Ro 🌸