I’ve had anxiety all day… panic attacks all throughout the day after not sleeping last night. I feel dread… like I could die, and then my breath catches in my chest and I gasp for air. I don’t know if it’s related to you, it’s not like anxious thoughts of you are in my mind, but it must be, right? That would only make sense since I just left you.

I went through so much anxiety before this trip… now I’m living through anxiety after. But when I sit back and think about it, I can still say it’s worth it…. I’d do it all over again, anxiety and all.

Before the trip I was so scared one or both of us would feel regret. But I can honestly say I don’t. It was worth it. Even with all the pain I’m feeling now, and the conflicted feelings I’ve had it was worth it to be in your arms again.

The weekend was rough. Emotions and tensions were so high. It was hard. But feeling your arms around me… I could physically feel your love more than I ever have. Most people never get that kind of connection… that deep feeling of love. I know you love me deeply better than I ever have… and that makes all the anxiety worth it.

Thank you for loving me with all of you, even when it’s hard.

Ro 🌸