C,

It’s been a really hard night here. How can I go from feeling so secure, loved, so sure about us and the future to feeling so lonely, scared, and worried about you so quickly?

I snapped you goodnight tonight. I told you in that snap I’d step back and let you lead all communication. Then I turned around and tried to call you when I couldn’t sleep. I know those are mixed messages, and I’m sorry for that.

I also deleted chats and I know you hate that. I’m sorry. I just want so badly to be that strong woman you need, but so often I’m just a scared little girl instead.

Can we go back to how it felt when you were holding me tight? It never feels like long enough, and now I don’t know when the next time will be… I miss you like crazy tonight.

I love you… so much… thank you for always trying to understand my big emotions, even when they don’t make sense to you. Thank you for loving all of me.

Ro 🌸