C,

I'm home. Seeing you was amazing in so many ways, but equally as heartbreaking and hurtful. We said so many important words, and I think we both worked hard to hear where the other is. I know you have so much work to do before you are the man that you know K and I deserve. Please don't give up before you get there. I'm counting on you.

There was a lot of hurt recounted this weekend. I want you to know I forgive you for all of it. I forgive you for every time you disregarded my feelings, every time you put me on the shelf, every time you forgot something that was important to me. I have to. If you are going to work to move forward and be a new and better man, I have to be ready to accept you for that person and not hold onto the past. Clean slate... that's what you'll find when you come back to me. I promise.

I told you this weekend I refuse to give up on you... and I mean it. I'm here... waiting.... until you tell me to stop. I see the man you want to be inside there and I know he's worth it. I know we are worth it. My bracelet came in the mail while I was away. It says, "My story is not over." My story with YOU is not over. I still remember when you sent me the lyrics to the Brandi song and I read those words, "I was made for you" and feeling just how much that is true. You are my happy ending... that's how I know this story is still being written. It can't end without you in my arms.

So I'm here... in the silence... waiting for you. You promised you would break that silence for me sometimes. Don't do it too much, just enough to remind me you're still there. I want you to use that silence to do the work you need to do. I want you to use that time away from me to try to get K to understand. Because I found you now, and I can't imagine my life without you.

Don't forget about me, please... remember all the good times, and work toward that. When you kissed me goodbye you said, "I'll see you soon." I'm holding onto those words and choosing to believe they are true. They have to be true.

I love you so much... come home to me soon.

Ro 🌸