C,

Damn social media. Every time I open it up there is a memory of us. Sometimes it's something completely unrelated that just reminds me of what was going on with us at the time, sometimes it's just a date that brings it all back.

Yesterday a video popped up. A video I made for you in response to a phone call we had. As soon as I saw the thumbnail all the memories came back. I pictured myself in my bedroom talking with you, smile on my face. This time of year we don't get much time, but you had carved some out for me in that moment.

After we hung up, I made you a video. A video expanding on the things I'd like to say to you... about the things, I'd like to do to you. It was graphic, for sure, but it got your attention because you called me the next morning... Christmas Eve... to talk about it. I had to pull over from driving to spend a moment with you. And I'll always remember that Christmas Eve phone call.

I miss your face. I miss your voice. I miss all of you. Even the parts that frustrate and infuriate me at times... because they are all you. I fantasize about how you'll come back often. Maybe it will happen, maybe not, but I'm not giving up on the chance. You know I need you, and I think you need me too.

Until you are back... I'll be here loving you,
Ro 🌸