I sit in my room and rot all day and work here and there when I can. Last few months some weeks I’d get four days other weeks I’d go without one or even two or this last time four weeks with no gigs. I’m slowly transitioning and haven’t done any surgery just HRT for the last few months and still boy mode at work. I really need to start exercising and keeping up with my hygiene, health and nutrition. And I really want to dive into my transition but I think I’m still kind of scared to. Like I feel like once I do then people will change up idk. Right now they know what I’m doing but I just crossdress in there eyes. I don’t change my voice or anything and really need to learn to but get so anxious and embarrassed I’ll look like an imposter so I just run my normal voice which is 100x worse. So I end up just hiding in my room day after day scared to get a job and then transition at work with coworkers and contemplating leaving my current job to start over as someone new. Idk what to do. Would love to get into voice acting (which idk if I’d boy it or learn to girl) or something cool or even something more interesting like a bondage model idk. Whatever pays the bills and is fun is good enough to me👍🏻anyways thanks for letting me rant Reddit. Even if it’s just to myself😁