For most of my life, I've suppressed my femininity, mostly due to fear of my family and what would happen if they knew the real me. In recent years, though, I sought out others who felt as I do.

I knew I wasn't gay, although I am bisexual, but I yearned to be among people who felt as I did. I tried to find dating sites, but never found THAT person. Until I took the leap and contacted a transgender sex worker.

The first time was awkward, as was the second. By the time of my third encounter with another provider, something clicked. She seemed to understand me better than the others had. Probably because I spent some time with her talking both before, during and after the intimate parts of our session.

Recently, I found another provider on Tryst and asked her for an appointment. We hit it off immediately and she touched aspects of my inward self that I hadn't yet fully explored.

Yesterday, I saw her again and this time another SW was involved. She was more dominate, but understanding, and for the first time in my entire life, I felt like I was finally being treated as the woman I have been all these years.

It was not only the most exhilarating sexual experience of my life, but it rocked me to my core. I have been very emotional since that encounter. Never have I felt more complete, more appreciated, more accepted as a woman.

I had approached, but never breached the wall before. That day the wall burst and I'll never go back.

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