So...my wife and I were raised VERY religious.

she was a virgin when we got married. Sex sucked (didn’t know that was possible) for a few years. I wasn’t allowed to self gratify or look at porn etc. not even joke about it.

Then she started getting hit on at work and liked the attention. We started talking dirty in the bedroom acting out fantasies....she fooled around with a few coworkers and has a standing permission to whatever she wants with a buddy of mine. She doesn’t like the idea of me with anyone else and I really don’t want to play by myself but she gives me “freebies” since she knows it’s not fair for only her to play. She doesn’t want to play with me around so if I want to have fun I have to do it without her. Trust is not a problem but I’d rather us play together. It’s not really an open marriage cause she doesn’t do whatever whenever and it’s only one person...and she doesn’t want to know if i’m cashing in those freebies. Not to mention almost no-one in any variation of lifestyle wants just a guy. My wife is smoking hot so everyone is always interested in just her. I have a nice thick puerto rican cock but I got a dad bod. what the hell are we and what do I do