Its coming to light that its incredibly hard if not next to impossible for a sissy like me to find a sissy bff to hang out with every so often to simply enjoy this life with another that enjoys dressing.

I hear that its difficult cause most sissies are into men and only a small fraction are not. So seems now my chances are slashed down even more. I dont know what it is its not like im askin anyone to sign over complete control of them and sign over the body for what ever sinister thought i may have, all i want to do is dress up and see how it gos inoeder to know if this life gos deeper for me and i need to continue deeper into it, or if my level of enjoyment ends here dressing at home alone, it may well be deeper where i need to look into going into public, or even concider being a full time gal, get implants who knows.

I mean dressing up with someone could very well NATURALLY develop between us where next thing i know is we seem to be making out i cant see the future, but what i do know is im so very shy i will most likely be too shy and stuff to even make a move. But thats besides the point when i cant seem to find anyone thats seriously into meeting. Maybe its me, something must be deeply wrong with me where i scare everyone away.

So i dont know im thinking of just being done with ever trying to meet anyone, and just seal that door shut for good, not going to entertain the idea even if im asked just immediately say no to prevent from it being cancelled on me and opening up the wonds of rejection again. Well when i find out the answer ill post it not that anyone cares but ill let you all know anyway 💋