So I met my twin in a new chapter in my life. It was the first time I went out on my own into the real world alone and he just came out of nowhere I wasn't supposed to be in the place that we met but it just magically happen? I can't explain that part but long story short we were together for 3 months he was my best friend he knew things about me I couldn't start to explain to myself let alone to anybody else. we always said to each other it felt like we know each other for years like lifetimes ago. there's situations that I swore he would leave me cause I thought I wasn't good enough but he made feel like I was always enough for him. But, now we are separate for about almost 3 years our breakup wasn't the cleanest his friends really got to him telling him to leave and that he would find happiness without me and our jealousy was in the way of us we stop talking to each other communication just stop. during the separation, I have found happiness in my career and family in myself. I have broken all of my chains that held me when we were together and forgave myself for all of the things that I faulted myself for. The problem is I have tried to break away from my twin but I can't. Like when I am with other he comes back into my dreams talking trying to reach out and I wake with anxiety and panic cause I feel everything from him. He now lives across the country so since he has left my sleep schedule has gone out the window so when it's 3 am my time its 9 pm his and that's when I can rest. Our connection has gotten so bad to the point I feel his presence every time I see 11:11 3:33 5:55 10:10 and I look away cause it hurts me that I truly dunno when my best friend will be back he has moved on into a new relationship so I lost and confuse on why can't I do the same.