I feel stupid and like a failure. I tried very hard to get rid of the negative emotions that were making me spiral and they crept back in.

It's like everyone I know is succeeding but me. They can afford their own homes. They can have the careers they planned for with great connections and perks. They can get married or start families.

I just exist. I'm never enough or worth keeping. Then, the person who I guess is my twin showed up. They wanted me around. I never felt inadequate to them. I let go of my fears because we both felt like we'd made a friend for life.

Today some doubt and fear came back. Reminders that they'll probably move on, live a whole real adult life with no time for me and I'll still be stuck.

I feel useless and unlovable.