We are going no contact for the next month. They were needing me to help when I needed to except I needed time away to fix my shit and stop hurting her and for her to heal. I’m bipolar 1 and have been switching meds but I’m on stuff that is seeming to work but I need more time to balance on it. I dont want this time apart but I know I need it especially her. I haven’t been easy to deal with but I feel so much calmer. Just trying to focus on me getting better now and not forcing this mentally. It needs to happen naturally when it’s supposed to. Just grind and hopefully in time we can be friends and someday fall back in love. They deserve the best and I will always support them no matter what. No matter how much it hurts. Even if we don’t find our way back. To my twin I will alway and forever love you. I wish I wasn’t so naive so I could help you rise from the ashes. You have got this shit and you will overcome this. If you can do all that you have gotten through I can be strong enough to handle anything that happens between us. You’ll forever be my person