As an academic I always try to reason things and find empirical evidence and facts to accept a certain concept.

But the past year I’ve had the most weird connection after meeting someone. We first met online, and the connection was strange from day 1. I felt something I had never felt before in my 42 years on this planet. At first I thought I fell in love, but this was so different. Then I thought I was a bit obsessed (I was😅) and that it would fade away. We were best friends for a while but then ‘boom’, it burst. They couldn’t handle it, send me text, thanked me and broke all contact. In that period I had, what I now know as dark night of the soul, so much pain. It was so incredibly and hurting.

At first I was ok with it, but after a while I couldn’t really get over them, constant thinking and dreaming of them. After a couple of months I send them a text and we were fine for a little while. I began noticing their feelings and their mood. I began noticing this weird feeling of deeper connection. But still I had never heard of twin flames. After a while I broke off contact cause they ghosted me constantly or didn’t reply or cancelled our plans to meet.

And that is when things started getting even weirder. It was like I hit rock bottom emotionally, every pain, every agony, every trauma I experienced in life, hit me. I was completely lost for a while.

I dreamt of my TF, I spoke to them in my dreams, I felt their anger towards me, I felt their love towards me. I actually did! I even felt this week that they were longing to contact me. And I thought I was imagining it and was going crazy. So I put it aside and accepted that we would never talk to each other again (they even blocked my phone number).

Guess what. Out of the blue they texted me today, after 6 months of no contact. And I felt it this week🤷‍♂️

And I know that we will be in seperation again, cause he hasn’t healed. And that’s ok. I have healed, I’m ok with this, even though it hurts and it confuses me a lot.