I have been on my twin flame journey since June of 2022. Since then, my twin flame and I have had numerous “coming together” moments and falling outs. The first fall out happened after he, out of nowhere, basically confessed that he was still talking to his ex while him and I were together the first time and had a plan to get back with his ex after him and I confessed feelings for each other two weeks prior. This was back in August of 2022. After that, we went into separation and didn’t talk for weeks. We tried to be friends, didn’t work. I felt obvious chemistry between us. It was hard. He would also do things that made it seem like he wanted more, but then make excuses. I knew he wasn’t being honest with himself or me.

So, we took more time apart after having a really emotional conversation. Then, we saw each other at drag show in which we spoke. I told him at that show that he is always on my mind and that I miss him a lot. He told me that he misses me too and thinks of me a lot.

A couple of days after that, I decided to tell him that I loved him and cared about him deeply. When I did this, I explained that I wasn’t expecting anything from him, or trying to force anything or make something happen that shouldn’t be. I also said that I didn’t even need a reply from him. He messaged me back that he is “not looking for a relationship” and that he was not ready to give up his independence that he’s worked hard to achieve and that it’s not the right time. This really upset me because I was completely misunderstood. I explained that I wasn’t trying to force anything or force him to be with me but he took it that way anyway. As a result of this, I blocked him. I was over it. The next day, I noticed that he had unfollowed me on social media.

Up until now, I have cared for him and loved him a lot still, and have felt really guilty. At this point, I am not sure if I care so much anymore. I have done nothing but love him unconditionally and show him that, but it’s never well received. I am tired. I want to move on. But he’s always in my head. The good memories we shared also come up. I feel guilty for having them.

Also, recently, I have seen signs about him like his name, the name of the town he is from, the type of car he drives, and even people that look like him. Is all of this normal? I don’t know how I feel about him anymore. I think I am becoming numb. Anyone help me make sense of this?