Like many men, my ego was closely connected to my size. But I also used to use the phrase “I’m a grower not a shower” a lot. So when we first started exploring kink and BDSM, I was indifferent about it. We found out that her being the dominant one and me submitting to her was what fit us.

She really gravitated towards chastity and exploring light sadism. As she became more comfortable, she started with light humiliation. We both responded positively to those and hit the ground running. While scrolling some NSFW social media’s, SPH captions caught my attention and I got rock hard. Once I worked up the nerve to suggest trying it, I brought it up. She immediately shot me down and said that was too far. She didn’t want to take the chance of “play time” causing problems on the vanilla side.

A couple of months later, out of the blue, she looks at my caged package and said “where’d it go?” Confused, I looked at her and saw a huge grin. Neither one of us could ignore how bad I was straining now.

We started talking about it and integrating it into fantasies we share with each other. She started exploring it the more comfortable she became. At one point while it was still rather mild, I told her how i couldn’t believe how fast she was getting good at it. She said “just wait. The more confident I get, the better it’ll get” And she was right.

SPH has become her favorite thing to engage in because of how easily we can have exchanges. It also makes me feel so much more submissive. One night, fueled by subspace, I asked her what she really thought of my size especially considering that she is a nurse that sees a lot of naked men. She said “you really want to know?” I nodded.

She replied and said “your penis IS small. It’s definitely not proportional to the rest of your body. If I’m being honest, you have one of the smallest I’ve ever seen.” I layed there in shock because in that moment, I could tell she was being honest and not playing the part. I spent the next few hours just processing what she had said. Knowing that she told me truth instead of playing her role really intensified everything. It took away that little safety net in my mind that would say “she’s just role playing”.