Soo my mom used to ask me many times when she would finally be a grandmother. I have two Brother but they are 25 and 35 year old game addicted and alcoholic virgins so i guess i was her only hope.

A few years ago she told me she thought i was not patient enough to raise a kid. I agree with that.

Me and my siblings have health issues: my brother had failing kidneys due to high blood pressure and my other brother has a scoliosis. I am being treated for cancer for the third time. My mom told me that when we were kids, she had the best time of her life.. but now it kinda sucks because her kids are everything for her and it hurts her a lot to see them suffering.

During my cancer treatment i see a lot of small children in the waiting room of the proton therapy center. I cannot imagine how their parents must feel. It's just awful. I can imagine my life would be absolutely ruined when my kid gets sick like that. I feel for them.

Another reason to not take a kid, among all the other legit reasons! Still not yet 100% sure, only because of the fear that i will regret being CF later on in life. Don't actually know why.