TW FOR THE FIRST PARAGRAPH: details about what happened

so about 2 years ago I was sent to Brynn Marr Hospital after a psychotic break I experienced. I spent two days in the emergency room after it became abundantly clear something was wrong with how I was acting. they pumped me full of antipsychs and I became lucid enough to not be a madman running around talking about God and the government, I also finally went to bed for more than 4 hours finally. there was no room in the hospital I usually went to so I had to go somewhere else, my family was extremely worried about the situation so I got sent to Brynn Marr. due to laws is north Carolina, if you're being transported to different hospitals as a psych patient even if you were voluntarily committed, you are transportation by police and restrained. I was handcuffed by my wrists and ankles then put into a cop van where I sat in a metal box with very little light with no leg room (I was sat full spread eagle, ankles touching but knees spread as far they could go because I simply could not fit any other way) that rattled extremely loud. I sat in there for 4 and a half hours, even getting carsick but it was too loud inside the giant rattling cage that any calls for help. when I was admitted, I was quickly pumped full of so much medication I couldn't move. I was like a zombie. from the few things I do remember, we were all treated terribly. my roommate could not read or write, a girl there snapped open a marker cap and slit her wrists in front of everyone then we got punished if we got upset, my life was threatened because I changed a song on our shared radio, someone tried to kill my roommate, they refused to clean my clothes but also didn't give me my birth control so I bled the entire time, I was not given enough menstrual products to stay clean, I was not given any medication for pain, I had another slight break in psyche and was left in a cement room where I ended up seriously injuring myself, the same girl who slit her wrists tried to hang herself with her clothes and got clothes privileges taken away, a girl got her nose broken and a black eye because she spilled water and we were all constantly drugged up to the point people would fall asleep in the middle of doing basic activities. my stay was prolonged over and over again, my parents only heard from me once for 3 minutes my entire time there.

has anyone else been here? does anyone know what I'm talking about? I was so drugged up the entire time sometimes I feel like I hallucinated the whole thing. does anyone else have any stories about this place? I only know one other person who went there. I hate that I'm now scared to get help because there's an incredibly high chance I'd get admitted somewhere similar again.