I just realized I probably have trich and the weight of it has been devastating. I've always pulled some sort of hair out but it's gotten worse over the last year. When I was a kid I would pull out my eyelashes and eyebrows as I guess a curiosity thing. I'm transgender female to male and before I came out (4-5 years ago) I used to pick my leg hair during difficult moments, but not all the time, for the past year I've been pulling my beard hair in sessions about 2-3 times a day every day. It's always the same spot and that spot is bare/any hair that grows back is now white and I feel embarrassed that I'm ruining something that means so much to me as a transman. My stress levels and anxiety are lower than they ever were so I'm not sure why it's happening more now. I feel like I'm failing my mental health and I feel stupid for not realizing this sooner or being able to stop. I'm bringing it up to my therapist tomorrow but I just wanted a safe place to vent so thanks for reading if you made it this far.