I had a really close friend who fell into the cult out of fucking nowhere a few years ago after being a casual fan.

(This is neither here nor there but she said it happened during the Pandemic and I read an article about how major religions and cults or high-control groups gained followers and converts during lockdown and like… if it looks like a duck and quacks like a duck…)

When I mentioned that every group hang and conversation had become Taylor-centric and it made me feel left out on different occasions I was told to become a swiftie so we would have something to talk about and at other times accused of making her choose between me and a pop star who doesn’t know she exists.

I tried to plan something unrelated and there was such a marked difference in effort on her end that it broke my heart. We talked it out, promises were made to do the sort of things she and other people did for Taylor-based events but the energy was never there and in one case a promise was walked back entirely. I know I can’t stay in the friendship because I feel so bitter and so taken advantage of all the time. I mourn for the friendship I thought I had before this stupid tour.

It sounds so stupid to say out loud and I know no one I know irl will understand because honestly they all became swifties too overnight. I had to say it somewhere. I’m sorry if this is not the place. This fucking sucks.