26f. I know I’m going to regret posting this but hey, I tend to prioritize my needy pussy over logic. Digital footprint?? Idk her.

I definitely am a traumatized slut w deep set abandonment issues; that’s an entity of its own for another day.

sooo basically I met my first “daddy” on reddit and “dated” (got my holes used by him almost daily irl & love bombed) him for almost six months.

Well he got a new high paying job & my attention deprived needy beta instincts immediately noticed when his energy shifted.

He no longer texted me good morning or goodnight, made careless small talk, or even sexted me. He blocked me on reddit but I told myself as his sub I shouldn’t question him, he has a lot of other things to worry about, not my silly insecurities.

I went along with his excuse for my own sanity bc I already knew the inevitable… “i can’t fuck you everyday now I’m soooo busy at work” and that maybeeee he didn’t block me he just deleted his account bc he had me now & that was enough for him 🤷🏼‍♀️🥺

my pussy atp is so addicted to him though..like I happily ate this man’s ass, rubbed my face in his balls, kissed his feet..i had a lot of firsts with him. I was so excited for our dynamic to grow to see how depraved he could get me.. it just felt sooo good obeying him. I definitely fell for him :(

About a week of not receiving the attention my holes were so conditioned & desperate for.. my abandonment issues took over & I decided to look up what I already knew.. that I didn’t want to see…& I was right..

he was posting ads on subreddits to have other betas move in with him.. expense free.. meanwhile I’m in school financially struggling.

Seeing that post crushed my dreams I had of being his pet.. using me whenever & however he wanted.. waking up to him using my holes every morning..using his cum as my coffee creamer💔

the fact that he had me wrapped around his finger.. desperate for his attention.. hoping every time my phone buzzed it was him.. trying to be mindful that he’s just bUsY..aT wOrK… rubbing my cunt every night thinking about how much I fucking miss him …while he’s actively ignoring me, putting effort & attention into someone else.

I made it known to him that I knew about the posts.. & his response was completely nonchalant & emotionless. Basically that he’s just. too. busy. for. me.

I feel so heart broken & alone; my cunt still pathetically craving attention. It’s torture.

sooo ummmmm any sadistic individuals want to laugh at how fucking disposable and worthless I clearly am while I rub my cunt & cry?? 🥺🦋😭