I want to offer my ass as a permanent sacrifice to a real man, to use up, stretch, damage, destroy and ultimately throw aside after he’s split it so bad no one will ever enjoy fucking it again. Dry fisting, double fisting, whatever it takes to ensure they’re the last person to get any pleasure from it.

It’ll never close again, I might need surgery. And I’d suffer the rest of my life, only for him to get off once. But is it because I want to be made as worthless as I feel, suffering so much for one orgasm? Or that permanent damage is the most I could offer someone? Or do I just want to make sure no one ever fucks me again? Or that I want my hole to be the most broken it can be, a used up whore who doesn’t need to worry any more. I really don’t know.