Welcome back to me telling you guys how slutty I am and how badly I wanted to be used.

[UPDATED STORY] ——————————- I met this handsome man online. I was anxious but decided I needed to go do this. The intentions were clear that we just needed to fuck. I get there and he lets me in, tells me to go to his room and walks behind me. I am so conscious of him behind me, feeling him leading me there. He was so kind , made me laugh a little before he began to kiss my neck and ears. He let me lick his tongue and I remember how endlessly i wanted to lap it up. I let him touch and feel me and kiss me until I couldn’t take it, I fell to my knees and opened my mouth. I needed his cock inside of me, I was so turned on by our age gap, I was turned on by how he looked, I was turned on that he kissed me how my grandpa used to do. It make something in me cave and feel at home. So I kneeled there, taking his cock in my mouth and fully as I could, even pushing it almost to the base. He grabbed my hair and started to use my mouth. I felt incredible. I had to pull away and the drool I left behind made my pussy tingle and want to go back for more. Fuck I felt so dirty and young and slutty.

He couldn’t take it and he told me to get on the bed , I laid back and opened up for him, it felt so good to cum over and over on his cock. I begged him to choke me, he did, I was seconds from passing out when he let go, my body felt limp, my pussy was dripping and I knew I wanted more. I switched to doggie from there and he spanked me as he gave it to me. I begged him to go harder and to grab my hair. I was just so fucking needy. I couldn’t stop begging him to hurt me.

I really needed it.

We did a little cuddle session and relaxed together. Talked, got water, and talked a little more.

He knew I was meant for use and I love how kind he was about it. I honestly was so high that I don’t remember exactly when but we went back to playing and I rubbed my clit, he touched and rubbed me and eventually he needed to touch me, his hands felt so good, he rubbed my clit and got me warmed up, then I rubbed while he fingered me , I felt so good. At one point I wondered how many fingers were inside of me because the opening felt so full, and squishy as he pushed into me. It reminded me of being little, having grandpa push into me. He wanted me to cum, and i just imagined myself little again getting rubbed and encouraged. I loved it so much!!!! When I finally came it was so overwhelming and he didn’t stop. He continues to finger me hard, with 4 fingers !!! Until I was shaking uncontrollably.

I felt so pathetic.

We did more cuddling and I told him that I wanted to be spanked. I really did need it and we went into a role , I was high he wanted to hurt me as much as I needed to be hurt.

I loved feeling like it was a punishment for misbehavior. I loved knowing that I wasn’t being good enough and this was hard for him to have to do, he didn’t want to hurt me, but he had to do it. He knew I needed to be punished. When I didn’t learn, he hit me all over my body and told me he has a nice belt for me to really learn. He broke me, I cried. He yelled at me if I’ve learned , I didn’t speak up loud enough and got another , next time I screamed out with tears in my face and told him I learned and promised to be a good girl. He rubbed my ass and told me to pull up my shorts. We laid down and he kissed me and we cuddled and then I left shortly after.

I spent a lot of time thinking about how I was molested and even talked to him a bit it a bit. I could feel him go harder as I told him how slutty I was for my grandpa and how much I needed it. I found it thrilling and hot and amazing. The pain felt almost beyond belief for me at some point because I am not good at handling pain, but I have been feeling numb and lately the idea of being hurt makes me so wet and this really awoken something in me.

I am so thankful for him, for making me an even better girl that I already was.

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I will write the full story later , just will be edited and updated. I am too busy to do my usual story telling , but I am sitting here having breakfast and it hurts ever so slightly to sit.

I suddenly have become interested in being spanked, and the punishment of being spanked. I begged him to spank me. I misbehaved so he would have reason to. He even grabbed his belt and used it on me, this all after he made me gush all over myself. The details will come and so will my inner thoughts as this was going on. I can’t wait to share.

I’ve never wanted to feel so in pain but I begged him to. It was my first time in a long time so he was kind. A part of me wished he lost control to the point of real fear in my heart.

I cried for him. He enjoyed it. I knew I wanted it and knew he’d want to do it.

We ended it with a good cuddle and I went home.