(I keep trying to post this on r/rapekink but it keeps getting removed. I also posted this here on a now deleted account once before-- I've added more details to make up for it... but srry if you've seen this twice.)

This was last year, almost to the day. Somehow both the most traumatizing and hottest day of my life so far. I was 19, fresh out of a relationship and vulnerable. I am FTM, pre surgery, 120lbs, B cup tits. I was instructed to wear my "sluttiest outfit" so I wore what's shown in the photo-- that's the exact photo I sent to Ben minutes before he pulled up to my apartment complex.

I was contacted by a guy who said wanted to challenge me to see how many loads I could take in one night. Eventually it came out that I lived alone, and the rest was history. We left the basement door to the apartment building with a faulty lock propped open, and gave people my apartment number.

He showed up first and said he'd handle inviting people. He said he'd screen everybody, make sure they were nice, gentle, and everything stayed consensual (this was a lie. Don't trust strangers from the internet, sluts. Or do. Who I am to judge.)

This was my first time doing anything like this; I was so nervous. The guy who was running it, Ben, offered me an edible. I took it, later learning it was 5x my regular dose.

While I was still at least somewhat with it, I tried to make a sign with rules, stating to always use lube when fucking my ass, leaving out condoms for people to use, no photos and videos should be taken, and setting up a safeword. Not a single person fucked me with a condom, and the lube remained untouched. I almost think seeing me ask for safewords and kindness was enough to set them off to do their worst.

The first guy showed up. I'm just starting to feel high, and am physically shaking. I want to back out, "Ben I don't want this. I'm scared" I say. I feel nauseous I'm starting to get so inebriated and scared. I threw up twice.

"Slut, what do you expect me to say? These pervs already know where you live. There's no backing out now whether you like it or not."

And thus my night began. Truly, I don't remember many specific details. In total it was 17 loads I took, and at two points was being stuffed from all holes with no care for how I was feeling. The most common hole of choice was my pussy.

One dude was crazy rough in my ass. Neglecting to use lube, just using me like a fleshlight. I'm crying, looking for help to Ben, the organizer, who promised that he'd stop it if anything like this happened. I safeword continuously to deaf ears. Eventually the dude cums in my ass, I'm so high I'm disassociating, he slaps me across the face and says to the group, "Alright ya'll, I've got to head out! Work in the morning. I'm a police officer." And off he went. A police officer raping a 19 year old high out of their mind, in a room full of hard cocks just watching and getting off. I can't/don't have anal sex anymore because of this. Sometimes a partner will touch my asshole and I'll break down and cry.

Other moments of note would be being coached through taking the biggest cock I've ever taken by a trans girl who showed up to get a blowjob. She was stroking my hair as it happened, telling me how good of a job I was doing-- didn't stop her from shoving my head down without my consent and facefucking me until I threw up on her cock. She also slapped me across the face when she left.

There was someone who had a huge cock, and he was gentle enough. He started slow, and made sure I wasn't crying because of him. "Hey baby is that hurting?" He asked. What a silly question. My pussy was being raw fucked for hours, of course this monster cock hurt. "No." I responded. I just wanted him to finish.

One bearded man, who came closer to the end, also found "mercy" on me. Noticed the blood dripping from my ass from the cop, and asked if I wanted help cleaning up. He cleaned me up with soap and held me as I cried in the shower. Didn't stop him from giving me a huge load on my tits, which he took a picture of, helped me clean up again, and then left after kissing me on the forehead, "I know you didn't want that sweetie, but you did so good."

My pleads were finally listened to and Ben stopped letting people come up about 3 hours in, when I was literally just passed out on the bed dripping cum from all holes and crying.

Ben was the last to fuck me. He wanted to see how loose my holes were. He was my final cumshot of the night, in my tired and sore ass. He tried to fist my ass but I physically pushed him off and began full body sobbing. He left me on the bed, and I've never heard from him again.

As I began to sober up, I cleaned up the apartment, washed the towels, took down my sign (which someone had written "SLUT" over). At this time I had already had a rape kink for a long time-- but this was something different, I had found my breaking point. (And made 17 men cum in the process).