A few of months ago I posted looking for cnc. I ended up connecting with a 20 year old girl who seemed more normal than what you expect.

We spent hours just talking about regular stuff before the conversation gradually shifted to our past experiences.

She began sharing some of the traumatic things she'd experienced. Uncles, boyfriends, how vulnerable she was went it happened. How she started seeking the bad sort of attention online. How it made her feel. She told me all of this sometimes maintaining eye contact, sometimes breaking away at the more difficult parts. I wanted to hug and make it go away but

While I empathized with her, the entire time I was harder than I'd ever been. I mean egregiously hard. I wanted to make her feel better but at the same time I wanted to write my name on the list of men who had ruined her.

I'm ashamed to say I took her hand, led her out of the restaurant and stuck my tongue down her throat in my car. I fingered her until she came then stuffed her little pussy while thinking about all the shit she'd been through. I did it raw too. I never have sex without condoms but I wanted to stain her insides. I came so hard with my dick jammed inside her. I swear i was trying to tap her ribs with it.

She kept texting me a few days after and I almost wanted to ghost her but the more desperate she got the more I needed it. I fucked her again and again. Each time using her like a plaything. I came so hard each time. I'm sure she came but I really didnt care.

Am I a terrible person? (I dont actually care. Her pussy was sweet and I came in it so many times. I'll keep using her as long as she refuses therapy)