A while back, this guy and I met back in June last year. We ended up falling out for whatever reason and I really don't remember it. It may have had something to do with my weight but I've since lost it (I am now 140 pounds and 5'10"). But this is one of the first instances that I may have (mild) hybristophilia. I think I became obsessed with him.

He would always make fun of me and was so rude. He would always make me feel bad about myself and he had a massive ego problem. But I got turned on so much. He told me that women should be "put into sex" and that it was OK to violate their boundaries. He would always send me very graphic BDSM porn while sending a misogynistic caption.

I just miss how mean and sexist he was. I get so wet thinking of him and touch my pussy at least a few times a week to him.

I miss talking to him. I want him again so badly. I would even be willing to let him fuck me in my ass. And I don't like anal at all.

J, I want nothing more than you to wrap your large, man hands around my thin neck.

I'm sorry to be posting so much, my new birth control is making me really horny.