I’m so scared and angry with my situation and I’m heavily contemplating suicide!

I’m 20 and had a heart transplant at 17. I also have a genetic disease that makes my bones weak although that’s been well treated for me. The problem is that after poor management with a sinus infection (not my fault) I know have an abscess in my tooth. I could have multiple that I don’t know about.

I hate how much fear I live in and how much energy I use simply dealing with illness. Worst yet, I don’t see how I can continue to work or finish college at this rate and I sure as hell know that being stuck in the USA is practically a death sentence.

I hate this and I think I’d weather kill myself rather than deal with more bullshit or have another illness kill me!