It doesn't matter if I pass.

I care about whether or not I pass in my own eyes, but everyone has different standards and perceptions of what they consider to be passable or not. So, while I might not think that I pass one day, someone else might. And, vice versa, someone might think that I don't pass when I thought I did.

When it's all boiled down, I don't think that my self esteem is necessarily tied to passing. I do think that it is tied to being found attractive and like-able though. I want to be beautiful and as feminine as I can possibly be feminine. However, beauty and femininity don't necessarily equate to attraction and like-ability.

Beauty doesn't make me a kinder, gentler or better person. Beauty is subjective and attraction is more subjective than beauty. I know that I've seen beautiful people that I wasn't attracted toward. Anyway...

The whole point of this rant is this; even on the worst days, someone can find you beautiful and attractive.