I turned 39 yesterday, and I didn’t really mind that I didn’t receive and “Happy birthdays!” from people I know. I thought that is wasn’t a big deal.

Today I realize that the more I open up to people about my transition, the more people somehow disappear from my life. The feeling is scaring me. Sure I’m not a girl who spends all her time with friends, but I’m not sure how to handle the situation. Is it the change that’s scaring people away or something else? I would love to make new friends, no matter if they are going through the same thing as me or not. Is it hard to find new friends as a trans person? I’m starting to feel a bit lonely in my social life and sad. I feel like a need a hug right now.