For some strange reason I want to be turned into a girl. I'm not really sure why exactly I just feel curious as to what it would be like. I think I've felt like this for quite awhile but I didn't realize it.this its very strange and probably doesn't make much scense. And I hope it is appropriate. When I see a scene where a character pretends to be another gender (ie dresses up as a girl) I tend to fixate on that part. A example of this is in a old cartoon I watched as a kid there's a part where a wolf dresses up as a female sheep and you see him putting on makeup along with a sheep costume. For some reason even today I sometimes think about it.

I think its also worth mentioning that I don't want to transition surgercaly I want it to be done in a way that is more complete so to speak. Like everything female voice hormones appearance all of it. (I'm not really sure how transitioning and therapy works). I don't know how to describe it.

Im not sure where these feelings come from through I do believe that some of it is curiosity. And I think there is also some desire to be different somehow. Plus I'm not sure if these thoughts are enough for me to count as being transgender. I've been talking to some transgender people online and they believe I'm trans if that helps in anyway.

I know this probably doesn't make much scense but it is very hard for me to understand my thoughts let alone explain them to others. I have so many questions about myself and no way to answer them.

If I have offended anyone by writing this I'm sorry it was not intentional