I had my first appointment today with Cardiff.. I had a trouble time explaining my self kept going back and forth and jumping to different points of my life so he would have the whole articulate story- he kept saying I wasn’t answering the question but I guess my story isn’t the norm of a ‘transgender person’ is.. so I was getting frustrated- I tried my best to explain feeling like the biggest moment of my life I was going to fail my self and my biggest prodigy of being a cis male ( spirit trapped in wrong body) I don’t think there no right or wrong way to explain to get a ‘diagnosis’ that’s why I like gender gp because they come from point of view you understand what you are but I understand that the diagnosis needs to be there because it’s such a huge transition occurring…

Regardless he stopped me a few times but he did say he would send me to the dr that deals with prescriptions for hormones- I’ve been on neibdo before and gel and like the gel.

So asking what I wanted I said gel- he said 6months follow up which will lead to chest surgery consultation and review to get seen by doctor that deals with that- I was over excited and distracted by my penis - I wanted to know in and out of that some questions I had- it felt weird my obsession with having one and having sex, peeing. Budge , a body part there than what’s f2m —- i tried explaining my fist thoughts how it lead to discovering and my thoughts that I’ve preserved… I guess I was almost ready to pay private for my prescription and having to deal with surgery even on low income- making ends meat.

But he said he get that letter sent to the dr that will prescribe and my follow up about my chest surgery-

I went to the pub to celebrate with my friends and had dinner- pub grub!!! I almost needed a drink and I don’t drink alcohol at all!!

I been through my story a thousand times how things lead toand my own education of being a male. Because one the questions he asked how did I find out about transgender people and I don’t like to say ‘f2m or transgender’ because my mind, spirit, soul is man and my body should reflect that!! I just got unlucky in this reincarnation and I hope the next life I can be born cis. It’s my own inferiority that society classes me as trans not cis but this passing and being perceived as cis and the questioning if I’m just making a mess - is out of the question- I AM A MALE AND MY BODY AHOULS REFLECT THAT!!

No right or wrong answer here but I felt like it was once he said a few times about my explaining ..

I guess he was making sure and doing his job!! Which I respect!! He was really helpful and asked many questions. Really how to you fit a life time of thinking and experiencing the wrong body into an hour!!!

Regardless it seem like it’s good news. 15 years ago I started this journey and he was baffled and amazed as I was to be seen by them before..

But things got in the way.. eek I’m on straight and narrow now getting my life together:

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