Hello everyone! I'm Jake and I'm 34yo masc transman. I've had top surgery and have been on hormones since 2012 so I have typical male body hair, a full (very red) beard, a masculine voice, and a hysterectomy (so no periods thank fuck). I call my parts clit and pussy/cunt and don't like other options. Misgendering and feminization are absolute hard limits.

Full disclosure: I have autism and I'm in therapy/on meds for depression and anxiety. I do struggle with not having enough "spoons" days, so a CG who is patient with me and works with what I can offer is critical. I've found emojis super helpful to convey/understand tone and intent and use them a lot.

This is a long post, but really covers almost everything that folx need to know about me. <3

I'm looking for something long term that doesn't just revolve around sex/sexting and it may take some time for me to be interested in sexytime (demisexual). I'm re-evaluating my kinks so please be open to exploring things that I might not like any more (ex. urethral/anal penetration, pee). Vag penetration is a no-go. I am trying to figure out edging/ruining, so help with that would be great - or just long-term denial in general. I'm not masochistic, so pain play should fairly limited (ex. spanking ass/pussy as punishment should be fine). I'm totes down to try new things.

I've tried "normal" bdsm relationships and they're too mean and make me feel bad. I need a Caregiver Dominant who wants to help me be good and celebrates with me when I am. I'm more of a middle than a little, but I definitely need someone to guide me and make sure I'm doing my chores and taking care of myself. I'd say my little/middle age ranges between 5 - 11, but I want CG dynamic all the time (so even when I'm not small). I like my CG to make sure that I'm healthy in as many ways as they would like. I like having to show I've had enough water by letting my CG watch (eventually) me pee and check its color. I'm open/interested to having to talk about my poop habits. I obviously need an adult make sure my temperature, weight, and body measurements are all healthy...and like any good boy, I know that temperatures should be taken either anally or urethrally (or both to make sure I did it right). I need a CG that helps me set realistic goals and encourages me to get things done. I definitely need someone who is patient and wants a middle who heavily relies on them for most things. I really want someone to whom I can give up most responsibility for regular decisions (ex. shower temperature, food, weight, water goals) and at-home activities (including time for exercising, chores, but also tv or relaxing time). I do have a stuffie (he's a fox named Kitsu) and I like doing coloring books sometimes. I need a CG that can emotionally tuck me in at night so I don't have scary dreams. I don't want to feel bad or sad or lonely, I want to be a good boy and make my CG proud.

Note: I'm not going to consider sending nsfw pics until we've established trust and built a connection. Pics and videos ARE going to happen, just not right away. Please don't ask: I'll send them when I'm ready. I actually LIKE having to show things for inspection so I can be told how good of a boy I am - and also because little boys don't always know what's best for them and they need a grown up to look and see. Face pics are going to be a much longer wait.

I like a lot of communication (I tend to be clingy once I like you) and definitly need more of a gentle dynamic. I can't play at work (I can sometimes chat), but I can give basically the rest of my day to you (as long as you give me time to read or play my video games sometimes). I'm usually available in my late afternoon-night time (Pacific time) on days I work, and all day on my off days (usually Thursday/Friday) - if your awake/active times don't match this, please save us both the sadness of being a good match but not being able to match schedules.

I shave my armpits and pussy and am in the process of getting permanent genital hair removal. I hate exercise but I want to lose weight and get stronger. I have a gym membership and low-impact activities are negotiable. I am also interested in strengthening my willpower and self-discipline but not sure how to approach that. My autism and depression will limit relinquishing food control, but that can still be monitored. I also struggle with long lists of standing rules.

I know I do need to communicate regularly and frequently to feel connected with my CG. Looking for folx between 21-50yo, but 25-40 are preferred. I prefer cis women, but am open to the right trans*/NB/male person as well. I prefer more athletic bodies for my dominant (mostly important for any potential in-person time), but open to more - it's more about the mental/emotional connection. I'm also open to monog or poly Dominants but any partners must be aware of our dynamic. I am not willing to relocate.

I would really like to find someone local (SoCal) to play with in person (eventually), but I'm definitely open to the right online relationship if our times of activity line up (GMT-8). If you actually read this far 1) I appreciate you more than you know, and 2) please let me know your favorite pizza topping(s) - replies without pizza toppings will be ignored.

If you made it this far, thanks for reading!!