hihi, i'm Eryn :3

i'm a 25yo nb transfem looking for other (aspiring) femmes (bangs eventually required). prefer an age range between like 20-30 though feel free to text me if you're outside of that. i'd like you to be below 80kg/175lbs at least, if it gets much more it'll be a dealbreaker for me.

i'm very much an extremely obsessive person and would like to end up in a mutually obsessive relationship, sorta looking for someone with an excitable dog personality ig, someone that loves to respond to my messages with the same vibe/energy and maybe even exaggerates it. lots of words or sentences in full caps, a worrying amount of spamming, constant playfighting, banter, bullying, slur/namecalling (so have some thick skin please :3), manipulation, h&rniness and all kinds of degeneracy, schizo/cursed/degenerate or just plain as f#ck cringe humor that makes you wanna reply with just a "." -lovebombing and worshipping. all day long, so being a neet/hiki is a requirement, or at least wishing to be one as i can just have you move in if things work out. all of this is my love language and i'd want it to be for you as well. if any of this feels too much for you, makes you uncomfortable or feel hurt, we won't vibe really.

the way you text, reply, type and just generally react is very important to me. i'm looking for a somewhat sillygirlclub/Needy Streamer Overload type of vibe, :3 TwT ^w^ etc etc. mostly text emoticons rather than emojis (:pensive: is cool tho), little care for punctuation, anime gifs/pics along with your replies, lot's of hmm/hmh/umm's while you're thinking of what to reply, lots of small messages rather than fully fleshed out sentences even if they just say the same thing in the end (spam me spam me SPAM ME), commas instead of periods after one of us said something extremely flattering, embarrassing and lewd,,, just be really, really expressive and responsive (in time/delay as well, i don't wanna feel like you're texting other people or have to wait like 30 seconds before your replies every time).

i basically want to feel like i'm inside of you(uwu)r head and can see/read/feel every thought that is going through you AS they go through you, not after you've thought of what to say and hit me with that reply with your carefully crafted opinion consisting out of 378 words. i want to see when you pause to think while writing, see what you initially thought and wanted to say but instead of backspacing it you just say it regardless, and follow up with your new/second thought (love JT). i want to end up feeling like i know EXACTLY how you think (this includes TYPOS, don't feel pressurized pressured to correct them immediately, just send the word and correct it afterwards. i love making fun of them :3). it's extremely important to me because i'm mute and have been mute for the majority of my life, and this way chats still feel like.. alive yanno? to me it just feels like replacing your actual voice with TTS otherwise. it's also very important to the flow of the convo, whiiiiiiich is kinda necessary if we're both obsessive NEETs spending 12h a day with each other writing and talking about shit. if we can bullshit through the entire day with very few actual meaningful convos/topics, that'd make me feel incredibly hopeful for our future. i doubt either of our lives would be that eventful to begin with it, so we'd def need it lmao. i realize that it miiiiight be a bit harder to include that in your intro as there's no bullshitting from me matching you, so i'll prob overlook quite some of it, but i still want it to be present! if your intro looks like it could've been sent to a prof at uni, i'll be very much so turned off. this whole paragraph is a dealbreaker for me.

i'd love to have a relationship that's based on primarily affection, gaming, anime and music. these are my core interests pretty much, and what i plan to spend most of my time on until the day i perish. for games i'm hugely into almost anything that can be played together, from Monster Hunter to Vermin- and Darktide (Helldivers 2) to RoR2 and more relaxing games like MC/Terraria. i prefer playing stuff on higher difficulties and doing end game content. as long as it can be played together really, i'd be down to play almost anything. also really, really into roguelites. my taste in anime isn't too picky, though i'm not really a fan of slice of life. music is kind of a rough one. i've never really been able to connect with people (i'm also very much to blame for that sadly), so i never really cared much for it. but after finally having been able to i realized it might be way more important to me than i felt like it was. it might actually be a dealbreaker, i don't know for sure. >.< - currently listening to Sewerslvt full-time, and i love Kikuo (Hanatan <33) and Inabakumori aside of that. also some um.. epic/trailer music? idfk the genre exactly. basically choir/orchestral music, movie type of background music you hear during the final battle of a movie or smth. i also want to try harder to connect with music that falls outside of my taste, it's hard but i really want to try! besides that i do like politics and um, like, bugs. be a fellow commie or at the very least be sympathetic to commie/socialist and anti capitalist/imperialist ideals. not gaming or not being into anime is a dealbreaker, music might be a dealbreaker, idk about that yet sadly. oh, already wrote that. anyway, music might be a dealbreaker, but i'm not so sure about that yet.

i'm mute and heavily prefer to stay mute, but for the right person i'd be able to start talking again. though i lose a lot of my personality while not texting, so i'd still prefer to stay mute. too autistic to feel myself while talking, i've always hated it. i'd prefer to text you despite sitting right next to each other. while still pretty much masc, my voice isn't really the problem with talking, it's just my brain suppose. tried to refund it but it's outside of the warranty period. TwT - also i feel like it's incredibly adorable if i sat on your lap and wrote and showed you my texts rather than talking! i'm in love with the idea. :3 - i'd be down to turn on my mic at all times so you can hear like background noises, me chuckling or laughing whenever you're being funny, calling you names or saying something sweet/romantic here and there. that's ideal for me but i don't mind trying to have full conversations at times, though there's probably still going to be a lot of typing during it. it'll also take a very, very VERY long time for me to open up to the point of being able to hold convos or get used to talking again.

i'm autistic, probably adhd but never got diagnosed, and i'd be down for a closed p0ly relationship. all my friends either have autism or adhd and while it's not a requirement or anything, i've never found myself to be able to vibe with people without either of them. a closed p0ly relationship would be cool but it's not a dealbreaker at all, 1 person can be my entire world. :3 - child and most likely pet free, got some trauma with the latter. i'm not a caretaker (except for you), and neither will i ever trust myself to become one. i'm also very VERY bad with responsibilities. i'd be down for like bugs or reptiles, but you've basically gotta shoulder the responsibility on your own really. i can do some household chores in the meanwhile.

i'm a switch and i'd like my partner to be as well. i really love constantly switching up the roles or fighting over who can be the d0minant one, i find it very adorable and loving. libid0 has been in the ditch since starting hrt, butttt i'm still really excited, mostly for irl stuff. doing it solo already takes so much effort on E and distracting myself with constantly texting or trying to be verbal takes even more effort, though i'd still be down for it from time to time. i'm also more of a teaser with pics and vids rather than texts or voice. i love showing off so you'll get plenty of stuff regardless hehe. ;3 - my preference goes to other transfems, i'm very much comfortable with my own body and would love it if you were as well.

please do put some effort into your intro, i'm a very, very very very, very very very very very VERY picky person. include what we do not have in common! if there's too many knowledge gaps in the things we could have in common i will probably not respond. saying you're into gaming as well doesn't mean much if it's only MOBAs or FIFA idk, which i'm very much not interested in.

ALSO, include slurs or insults in your intro!! i wanna feel LOVED and they're the quickest way to my heart. anything goes besides racial slurs really (and even then i'd let ya know if you said something i didn't like, no hurt done so dw really). no mercy. i'm autistic, trans, stupid as shit, depraved, desperate af for you, yada yada yada. again probably a lil bit hard to actually include in your intro without it just feeling like unwarranted insults ig? maybe insult yourself instead lmfao. would make for an interesting intro, definitely. :3

um, anyway, that's about it i suppose. ty for reading. feel free to resend your intro as my preferences/dealbreakers have changed somewhat, though you'd most likely be ignored anyway if i didn't reply to it the first time, sorry hehe.

from 80k character posts to <9k, rip long post format. for anyone who remembers me by name, you flatter me <3