I transitioned in early 2000s, and passing since that time. I'm immigrant, came in Canada with my husband. I loved him so much, and we were together since 2014. But last 3 years he turned to be abusive and physical violent. Like... He broke my rib, used my own pepper spray against me, etc. And I am afraid if he can kill me. He is also, like other abusers, isolated me from my friends.

Basically, if you ever had a dream to save your future love, to be a real man™, here is a real life opportunity. I think, it's not going to happen, but at least, I tried, lol.

A bit about me:

I'm in the stealth - so, I always pretend, I'm a cis girl. You don't need to tell your friends about my transition. I'm tall - 5"10, I have natural curvy hairs, usually I color them in red color. I'm educated - I have MS computer science, and I worked as QA engineer and later as software engineer.

I like to write books (on my native language, but I hope, one day I'll write using English too), like to read literature. Prefer love stories and sci-fi - and it's what I often prefer when I'm writing. Prefer same genres in TV shows and movies.

I like to volunteer and help other ppl - helped a lot of trans girls myself, maintained chats, did other volunteering things for ppl outside of LGBT.

Played in computer games together with my husband, because he is a gamer, especially when he was not violent. I can consider it as my hobbies too.

I like travailing, learn other cultures, other languages.

Also, I like science, especially biology and astronomy.

Additionally, I was always proud to cook food to guy, which I loved. Or prepare his clothes, etc. Also, I'm passion about technological singularity as well as transhumanism topics.

Who are you? You're very clever and intellectual. And love to have intellectual conversations, you have hobbies like this.

I like masculine traits in temper and in body, so, I'm straight. You can be cis guy or FtM. If you're FtM, I don't care, if you're not "soft boy", not kinda of nonbinary, etc - so, I expect, you're passing and have hypermasculine personality, and pls be a bit taller than usual FtM. But pls don't be abuser. I hope, not each guy with masculine personality is abuser. I hope, you'll protect me, you're not another predator which looking for prey.

Of course, I don't believe, that somebody going to rescue me, and be my knight who saves her princess, because I'm not a princess, but shit. And I think this way not only because of physical abuse, but because of my age and because I'm trans, and because I have what chasers(and nobody else can be interested in a trans girl) don't like: I have SRS.

I think, I need to somehow escape, fix my mind, and then date just like normal girl, with cis straight guys, but with a big and bad secret, and share it if I believe that somebody can accept this.