As the title suggests I deal with envy a fair amount, especially when i scroll through and see all these beautiful trans women, some just barely starting HRT. Which is wonderful for them and im happy they are so successful with their transition. But being on HRT 5 years and still struggling to feel passable or even look half as much like a girl as they do is super discouraging. Hell i dont even feel like on my best days i "pass" but just look like some fem thing that isn't quite a girl but not quite a guy.

As well as seeing beyond pretty girls posting if they pass or not, i realize they have those feelings of course and they are 100% valid because dysphoria and body image sucks. But i cant help but feel irrationally irritated sometimes seeing those and thinking i wish i was half as passable. Which i know is a shitty thing, hence why i wanna change the way i feel about it.

I feel i cannot really pass unless i get ffs which is unobtainable for me in my current situation so i feel im just becoming jaded and its makes me feel like a bad person.

Just want to say lastly that yall are valid whether anyone thinks you pass or not to feel like u need reasurence or want advice on what u can do to help pass. Not that u need my approval. Just that my point isnt to cause drama and just the desire to stop feeling this way. if anyone has any advice that would be wonderful

Hope i didnt come off like an ass or anything.