Hello again r/trans, recently i have been questioning my identity again and i would like some advice if you have some to spare. I currently identify as non-binary but i know a few things about myself that make me question that: - majority of my goals for if i can transition are very masculine - i'd rather be mistaken for a boy than a girl - i feel pretty comfortable being called things like boy and man

I tried some advice i found on other platforms, for example asking myself if i had been amab would identify as non-binary. but many things get in the way of me figuring out the answers to questions like these as: - if i'd had been amab the homophobic and transphobic views of my mom and step dad would have been drilled into my brain harder as shown with their attitudes towards my little brother when talking about the subjects to him vs when they talk about those subjects to me( they know i'm bi but they don't know anything about my gender questioning) so if i'd had been amab i probably wouldn't have even discovered that i'm bi. - the attitude of family members with similar views to my mom and step dad on both sides of my families had made the first part of this questioning hard as i know they would probably would never see me as their son/nephew/(whatever male version of what i am to them) even if i transition in every way possible so if i were a trans man they would never see me as a man and i know if i cut them off when i'm older because of this issue i'll feel guilty no matter how they treated me in my life - i still like being seen as gender neutral sometimes which from what i've gathered from trans man is not a common thing to feel among trans men

So if anyone actually read all of that previous text, pls spare some advice because i know i having. a label isn't necessary to be aloud to consider myself part of the trans community as i know i'm not cis no matter which of those two labels i am, finding out what i actually am is important to me. Sincerely, Mars