I had what may have been my worst day today. I can't present as myself at my job. Because what I do and where I currently live(SOUTH IN THE US). On top of the the dysphoria it was a rather hard day mentally at work. It felt like a crushing weight. Like I was walking on a sheet of glass and when I took a step it cracks. It's been like this for a while lately and it's as if the Glass is spider webbing beneath me . I've become scared to move forward but if I don't start moving forward its almost as if my transition has a stand still. Which cause my dysphoria to get worse. The Glass is breaking and I'm going to fall into darkness. Does this happen to anyone else? If so how do you handle it best?

I wear my feminine clothes under my work clothes and am trying my best to make longer hair look corporate professional. I'm also looking for a job that I can be me all day.