Hey everyone. Not sure how to get this off my chest. But since 2019 I decided to become a femboy because I liked feminine looks and I've made only a little progress. However since I made that choice I have frequent feelings of dysphoria where I look at myself in the mirror and can't help but feel hopeless and really sad. I would love to start hrt but there are 2 things about that. 1: I'm terrified of the fact that it's permanent. 2: I actually like the part I was born with and don't want to make that worsen. So I am kind of really stuck and don't know what the hell I am. I want to be a cute femboy but at the same time I want to be a beautiful woman. I'm not sure if this counts as a vent but I have very few people I can actually disclose this to so I'm just putting it here.