Last night to now my Self Esteem is very very low, I've been crying none stop, shaking and hyperventilating. I still haven't come out to my parents yet because of how i know they'll react. But I have Undiagnosed Autism, alright. I get i have trouble understanding things. But my parents are trying to force me to get a second job, I've said no, they push the idea even harder. Which that alone is stress enducing. But last night I had an item thrown at me, for not getting up fast enough. The person who threw the item at me called me, a "Douche Nozel" which I've looked up, and it means "An Obnoxious and Contemptible person" I'm an introvert, i hate confrontation with more than one person. Before this my Self Esteem was already very low, but now it feels like it's just vanished. I barely have any friends, I've been verbally and mentally bullied my entire life...i just want a few actual friends who'll check in on me ask how I'm doing, and be at least somewhat show interest in what I'm doing or what i like. Not completely shatter my intrests with snide remarks...

I just want actual legit friends...i can't take being alone anymore. It's cold being alone and i hate it. If you do want to be friends, my DM's are constantly open.