I always associate boners with a mans role.. like I can get them if I want to but I usually don't. I've been on hrt for 2 wonderful years (a few days ago), I experience the intense butterflies arousal with things that really get to me. But I just don't really get hard to those things anymore. Again I can, but I don't even really want to, I don't care. It's there - I wish it wasn't, it'll be gone one day. It is what it is.

I know the title sounds like I'm conflicted but this is why I'm asking.. my counsellor (therapist) seems to really think this is a bad thing.. she said it sounded like disassociation. I love my counsellor because of her experience with ND. But I wonder if this is a lack of knowledge in Trans or if I'm actually losing touch with myself or a part of myself?

My girlfriend and I have spoken about this and we don't really need it to have fun, and we enjoy time with each other in other ways. And it's not exactly like my drive has disappeared.. progesterone kicked that into full gear in no time.

Just curious, am I disassociating? Is that a bad thing? Or am I just becoming a girl? You know - someone who doesn't get boners?