This has been an emotional Rollercoaster of a year! Coming out as trans to my wife was very hard, and scary. It's been most of a year at this point since, and we're still planning our entire lives together:) Over the last couple months I've come out to most of my family that matters, and a handful of close friends. It's seems that most already knew that it was inevitable, the way I've lived my life, the things that have my interests, and the way I carry myself in my daily life(clothes, jewelry etc.. It has been a huge weight off my shoulders. I feel like I can finally take steps on the path to the real me. And none of it feels forced or uncomfortable, it's almost surreal how natural it feels to be more myself everyday. It was crazy tho, the feeling, the raw emotional feelings I felt when I realized that I've been putting a show on, putting on a mask for my entire world for all these years. I've been showing the world a fake me.. I cannot explain how relieving it is waking up in the morning to my wife and kid that now know who I am, and still love me, and care for me the way they always have. I'm now moving forward! I have my first hrt appointment at the end of the month. My wonderful wardrobe is growing with things that actually reflect who I am. My life is no longer at a stand still. I know that I have many battles ahead, many hard days to come. But I'm ready, and I'm in control of most of it! I yearn for the day that all of the questions have been answered, and I no longer stay in the shaded areas. But until I'm running in the sun on the beach with no dark clouds in sight I will enjoy the uphill fight to be me!! I'm happy I'm here ladies. Xoxo- kay