Not sure how to even start. I’m approaching middle age (35) AMAB. I have a wonderful life, one that most people would love to have. Good career, comfortable lifestyle, you know…. But.. all my life something has been off. I’ve never felt comfortable in my own skin. I’m sure many will look at my profile, so I won’t mess with it for a while if you need context, but let’s just say I like to play up to certain stereotypes, it has made me feel good about myself for quite a while. Not tonight, I look at the crap I’ve posted and it makes me sick. I feel like I’ve been cheating, and instead of being honest with myself, I’ve put off the pain by using stupid sissy/ femboy crap like a drug to keep my brain distracted from the fact that I’m Trans. WTF do I do now.