I always feel as if I'm some sort of poser. Or as if I'm "faking" being trans (nonbinary) because of the way I present myself. I'm afab, and tend to dress extremely feminine. And while I absolutely adore being femme, on the inside, the way I feel about my gender fluctuates pretty often. Sometimes I feel mainly on the feminine side. Other times mostly masculine. And sometimes in the middle of both, or even neither. I'd like to explore dressing more masculine and even getting a binder at some point in the future.

But with all that being said, I still feel like I'm "faking" it. Because I'm not particularly androgynous or anything. I also don't plan on getting HRT or changing my name. And while I know that nobody needs to have those things in order to be valid in their identity, I still feel like im lying to myself and others. I often tell myself that I don't "belong" in trans spaces because I'm not trans enough, or something along those lines. I know that being nonbinary/trans doesn't look one specific way, but I can't help being critical of myself most days.