Protect the children, they say. Trans and gay people are sexualising minors, they say. The LGBTQ community is brainwashing everyone, they say. It is an insane campaign of fear mongering and hatred all in the name of power, nothing more. They hate us, because we exist.

Every day now I dread looking online for fear that some new ordinance has been put in place somewhere, or that some new argument has been thrown together by them. As of right now I am writing this not in tears as I would like to be, but in a tangent of shock, rage and anger; the emotionally charged overture to Richard Wagner’s Tannhäuser blaring my eardrums as I try to stable myself. Today something inside me snapped after years of pressure. Years of hearing transphobic comments, nearly two decades of suffering under my own self-loathing dysphoria and my own isolation. And on top of this, the anvil on top of this flimsy structure is the society that wants to murder us, and by default me. In the United States, it seems like everywhere is full of politicians who want to arrest or kill us just for existing, just because we bother to think for a moment.

What really gets to me is the fact that these same people, these exact same people are the same trying to complain about their opponents trying to take away their rights to free speech and expression. The nerve! These people, I just want to strangle them, and by now I just might. I cannot express to you my anger with these people, I want to scream. I want to scream, and scream, yelling, crying. I want to express myself and I’m angry now that I can’t do it justice in writing. But these people, if one could call them that, only want power and wealth. They do not care who they step on to get it, in fact they seem to enjoy the suffering of those below them so long as their select view of what constitutes an American (or human but who am I kidding) remains unharmed. To all the politicians, you do not deserve your rights if your plan is to destroy those of others.

The world is exploding because of us, embrace it. Scotland is on the verge of independence because the United Kingdom didn’t want us to exist. The United States is falling apart at the seams and human, not just trans, but the rights of all humans are being erased in every state whether you realise it or not. Don’t just sit and let it happen, that was my revelation; my epiphany was that nothing will get better if I just sit and wait for something to happen. I’m done waiting, I’m done with letting my world burn, and I’m starting here. Make yourself known, to everyone. Make yourself known that you won’t be killed quietly, we as people deserve the same rights as any other. I apologise for this ranting but I just need to let someone know, for whatever reason.

They say that we’re the dangerous ones, while they’re here trying to silence, arrest and force us to comply with their cookie-cutter brainwashed conservative model. Again, I want to scream. I want to stand up on a soapbox and scream my heart out to the world, and yet a single voice is as good a silence in a world like this. I want people to hear me even though nobody will, because I feel for every single person affected by this, and I guess it’s instinct that I want to do something. I see suffering, I want to help, yet I can’t. But to them we’re dangerous, sex-crazed monsters that want to brainwash their innocent children. Us. The people who get beaten, abused and driven to suicide by them. Us, the people who are forced into conversion therapy and hiding because of them, the people who want to arrest and kill us. And we’re the dangerous ones. At times, I’ve considered actually living up to their standard. At times, I want them to fear me like they fear death. At times, I want to become the crusader, the one standing up but I’m truly powerless. I am only trying to imagine a miracle, something that would make life better.

Only because we do things differently, because we want to act on our desires rather than live in internal agony is it that anyone is hated. Only because we did something different. Only because we act differently to what idealist politicians want, we look different and we side against them. Because in the long run, that’s why they really hate us is because we side with their enemy. But it’s mainly because we’re something they’re unfamiliar with, and they believe that since we’re something other than what is ‘natural’, we must be some tool of the antichrist, and must be hell-bent on destroying all that they know. They hold on to antiquated stereotypes because they can’t accept change, and they can’t accept that people are individuals with individual thought. Most of all, however, they see people like us as a threat, to their own stability. They’re afraid that they'll be forced to leave their comfort zone and enter into a wider world, and that we’ll awaken something inside of them. So in a manner of speaking, the ‘turning people gay’ claim is somewhat true, but only really to the people who already had those feelings. And it’s the fact that they have to constantly spurt out nonsense about the movement that really exposes that they’re trying to hide something. Or at least that’s my take.

I’m sorry for this, I really am I just kind of needed a place to vent this all out, I guess. Mods if you take this down, just let me know, I understand if you don't want it sitting in the feed of the subreddit. Probably going to delete it myself anyway, though.